So after February 12, 2014. I’ve taken a change into what i’ve been doing, who i’ve been hanging out with. I’m realizing that I am growing older as time passes and I can’t really stay the way I am forever. Being a smartass about everything doesn’t really make me a better person now does it?
The first event to happen was to fill the void inside of me. I didn’t really know that this was all I really wanted to do until recently. So I got myself a new girlfriend. Right? Simple answer that many people would take. (“Ha Rebound” is what some of my friends initially said). Because of this choice though, i’ve had to accommodate for a new circle of friends who didn’t really enjoy my sense of humor vs theirs. All that they really enjoyed was the fact that I had a car (which I just put up with for some odd reason). And my vast knowledge of things. So this was the first part of me becoming nicer.
The second event is relevant to the first one. My change of friends is probably the second greatest factor into this whole thing. The fact that I’m not spending time with the guys i’ve grown up with; the people who can put up with all my bullshit and at the end of the night we’ll still hug one another before leaving. It just wasn’t the same. I have had to accommodate for my surroundings or else i’d be at home all day. My current girlfriend doesn’t even know what it’s like to be with me when i’m fully relaxed. But that one night, last tuesday. When we were just sitting at that table and no one held back on anything. That was the last time in about a year that i’ve been so happy. So thank you two for that.
Uhm I guess this would be called the third event? Right? I’ve come to notice that my current girlfriend isn’t really someone I want to be with the rest of my life. I mean, I could go into detail, but as of right now we have a lot of things planned for the rest of this year so I don’t really want to cause a lot of trouble for everyone around me. (It’s mainly because my sister is getting married).
Uhhhh. The fourth event is when I had a panic attack about a month or two ago? I can’t really remember when it was, but I had a fight with my brother. And he hit me. Like i don’t know what happened. But he hit me and I went into shock and had a panic attack. It was the first time in almost 10 years that anyone in my family has ever hit me. I don’t know what happened. I couldn’t cope with it. So generally I don’t really argue with anyone anymore.
So this is the fifth and final reason (which is addressed to a specific person who you should all know by now.) I’ve always enjoyed your company and the stupid little conversations we have. Regardless of how pointless or remedial it is nowadays, i’ll always try to keep it going. I want to be with you, but I can’t shake the idea that there could always be someone else. Someone better. I can’t shake the idea that I might ruin your life for some absurd reason, jealousy?. So i’ll just patiently sit on the sideline. Rooting for you all the way. Like I promised, right…? Forever is what I said.
Thanks for reading!
Dining Etiquette Around The World, an infographic by Restaurant Choice
via Feel Design
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this is very interesting and fascinating. i know from personal experience as a korean also not to stick my chopsticks upright in rice because it resembles incense at a funeral and is considered to be an omen/bad luck
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